am i dying right now
i am feeling crushed overwhelmed compressed squeezed bursting this feeling i feel like crying but can’t it feels like my heart is being crushed. im going throught something. something is being processed and i am looking forward to it passing. the other side.
dying alone. the reality of being alone individual separate. desparate to be a part. im so sad. i could have just been a barnale and be satisfied. is this what i am willing to sacrifice. i just want to be attached to something and can tolerate whatever drowns me beats and batters me i can be a happy barnacle. and i guess i decided not to.
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK
FUCK I AM so completely fucked
what the fuck is wrong with me how can one text message just UGHHHH IM SO FUCKED!!!!!
ugh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im so mad at myself. WAHHH!!!!!!!!!!
wahh!!!!!!!! this is a helpful exercise!! wahhH! what is wrong with me. blerghs okaya i guess i am growing wtf!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
help meeeeeeeee save me from myself and my fucking shit attachment fucking shit what the fuck
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